Never again

I don't think I will ever be comfortable again what with my hands and arms feeling extremely crappy and my legs feeling weak and weird and my back stabbing me randomly...my entire body feels broken and I'm feeling pretty hopeless about all of it. I'm trying not to let it get me down, but it's hard. My mental state is quite fragile. Just so you know where I am at the moment, I nearly burst into tears when I see someone walking/running easily, or someone using the computer for hours on end with no discomfort. I try not to think about it.

I had to walk from JCPenney to Macy's at the mall the other night. They're on opposite ends of the building. You know how it is in dreams when you want to run but you can't seem to move your legs -- they feel like lead? Well, my legs actually felt like that. Halfway through the mall I felt like I couldn't go on. This depresses me more than anything.

What can I do about it? I'm not sure I can do anything except vent and hope that time will, indeed, heal all wounds. I guess that eventually, being uncomfortable will probably feel normal. If that's the only way to feel like myself, I can't wait. This crap is not cool.

What a depressing entry. Sorry!