Oh blog.

Here I am, sitting on my porch/deck/balcony thing with my computer, trying to read crappy articles for my reference class (actually they're pretty interesting, but still kinda crappy) in an effort to take advantage of the BEAUTIFUL weather that has come to visit...hopefully it will stay! Arthur is joining me in a sunbeam, the scent of the lentil soup simmering in the crock pot is wafting out the door...it's quite lovely.

And yet, I can't shake the feeling of panic brought down upon me by my theory homework. I basically know what I am doing but then I get thrown for loops and feel like I need to know if I'm on the right track before moving on. I'm also in a constant state of catch-up because I didn't just come from my undergrad program -- um, my last theory analysis class was in...oh, 12 or so years ago. I have to review everything as I work, so it takes forever.

I need to figure out how to deal with this chronic low-level stress/anxiety I feel about school work, nay, life in general. On the one hand, it's what helps motivate me to work hard and get good grades, but at the same time, it wreaks havoc on my body and mind. In the end, it's the body and mind that really matter, right? How to strike a balance?

To make it worse, I will soon have to start blogging for a class on a time-sensitive schedule. This means that I can't take my time because of my sore arms/tired brain. This equals more stress/anxiety and no time to work it out via stretching or yoga or exercise or rest. Just the idea of this blog thing causes my anxiety level to rise.